UPDATE

Its hard to explain how scared I am right now for my life, yet at the same time knowing that everything will be alright in the end. All this in between stuff is just killing me!!!

I had my surgery. It went good, I just needed a little more recovery time than originally thought. I was there for 5 days, tues.-sat.. My surgeon was able to get everything out and my plastic surgeon did a wonderful job on on my reconstruction. I can't tell you enough how lucky I am to have all the doctors that I have working on my behalf. They are incredible and I am extremely grateful.

My back decided to show its ugly side when I woke up from surgery, its been very painful, but my doctors were wonderful and have tried to do all they can to get me help for that as well. Right now I have a Physical Therapist coming in from home health to help me get back on my feet.

Last week my surgeon called me to give me my pathology report.

It wasn't good.

Originally we thought she would only need to take 6 lymph nodes, well it ended up being 18. That's ALOT! They were all still full of cancer. The tumor she took out as well was 6cm, still quite large.

Not what we all wanted to hear, the worry most of all being that quite possibly there are still cancer cells out in my blood stream. It also changed my diagnosis from the beginning. You can look up the different staging online to understand how it all works, size, place, how fast it grows, etc.

Instead of being a stage 2b I am now a stage 3c...

If you know how it works stage 4 is the worst and its throughout the whole body. I am very very close to that. I cried! Alot! 2 of my doctors told me that if I was NOT estrogen positive (which I am estrogen positive) they would be really, really worried about me. Even though they are more worried about me than originally.

As of last week, we were just going to keep going, do the radiation and hormone therapy and just keep watching my labs. Well, my oncologist called me first thing yesterday morning and told me that he had been thinking about me all weekend. He decided that we should do a PET scan, which is a whole body scan to see if things had moved in to other parts of my body, particularly the liver, lungs and bones. To just get it done and make us all feel better. I am glad that he called me and glad to be able to have this test to just help us know for sure what we are dealing with and be able to not be afraid.

I should know no later than friday the results, and I will post them.

I am still having a hard time recovering. I am having to sleep in the recliner and still very weak and tired. I cannot wait to get back in my bed and just feel a little normal!

Please just pray that the cancer won't go anywhere else and that we can get this under control, I am getting to the point where I can't handle this anymore. I WANT THIS TO BE OVER WITH!! I have had it!!!