A Year For Me!

I am learning a lot about my self right now. I have needed to make some decisions about my health, and am learning how to be strong and do what I need to for ME! My few health problems that I have are pretty obvious to myself as well as to certain friends, but when it comes to those I really need support from, its a whole new ballgame! Why is it that way?

When you get married your goal as a couple for this life is to become one. In certain ways that isn't too hard, there is a reason you came together in the first place, but in other ways it is a massive task. I think that as women we try really hard to please our husbands. Now I am not saying that is all of us, but most of us do. We are the ones that hold our families together. Well I have tried to do it my husbands way, but he isn't always realistic. He is an extreme rarity in this world, and I am still at times trying to figure him out! I love him immensely, but now its my turn to do things my way! I know a lot of people think that I am crazy for waiting so long to get things figured out and fixed, but when you are married to someone like Dave it is not that easy. I am telling you he is very unique, I don't even think I can fully describe him for you. I love you, honey!!!

This is my year to take care of me! We feel strongly that there is another child waiting to come to our family, but I need to take care of myself so that I can bring him here and take care of him as well as my other children.

I have already started! It is going to cost quite a bit of money, but at this point it doesn't matter, I am sure that Heavenly Father will help us out! He does want us to take care of ourselves, right? I got an x-ray and an MRI for my back, that I am still hurting from when we did our "amazing race date" last march. I found out today that I have a bulged disk, in 2 different places and that it is treatable, so starts the process of getting that fixed. I also have been suffering for 8 years now with stomach and colon problems that certain individuals keep telling me is all in my head. Whatever! I know how I am feeling and please don't tell me otherwise! I have friends that have seen me first hand in the middle of an attack and are completely believing that I need to figure it out, why is it not so obvious to others? I have already scheduled to have some procedures done to help me figure out that side of it.

I am needing an outlet right now, that's why I am blogging. This is more for me than to share what is going on in my life right now. So goes the different growth stages in life, I feel strongly that I am going through one of those at the moment. I can feel the changes going on inside of me. One of them being, take care of yourself the way YOU feel you should be!